Parking ticket

To trust or not to trust, to lose control or not to lose control, that is the question. I guess the hard part of gaining new experiences is that you learn that there is absolutely no one except you and your immediate family that you can really lose your control with..it's as if you have to be on alert all the time..to check out stuff..becuase if not and if you accept whatever everyone says you may have to pay dearly for it. A very small scale example is the situtation that happened last night. I got to go to one of my friends house down town, if anyone has been in Toronto and downtown a while they would know that it's a different land over there;)cias all over..anyways I decided to park and one of my friends who was with me told me that she absolutely sure that we can park there and I without properly checking the conditions of the parking, accepted what she said. It's not about her or even the parking ticket, although since this was the first time it happend to me, I never, ever gotten a ticket, I feel it's the worst way of getting a ticket;), but it doesn't matter what I feel, the fact that I was careless and didn't double check what somone says was what really bothered me. So then this question came to my mind, that how is it that at work I will double check everything on my report before submitting them, but here I didn't. I guess I just wanted to not to worry about it. Just to accept that what someone is saying is true without thinking. I guess it's sort of like the idea of Messaya, that he will come and he will change the world and would creat peace and all that, its the idea that we hold on to make us feel better and basically not to take care of our actions now..its a bit avoiding to accept the responsibility. Oh one more thing, Responsibility..is such a huge word in my vocabulary. I guess if I could catagorize my feeling that night, here how it would be, frustrated, because I don't understand why the city of Toronto has to have million little parking signs which each one is explaining the one next to it!!!Disappointment, about how I wasn't alert and was careless and last but not least is the feeling of sympathy and pitiness toward my friend. I know if I was in her shoes I would probably get very upset since it was her idea to park there and that's why I tried to do my best to make her less upset. I guess the best thing that came out of it was to re-evaluate my protocol in life, my SOP (Standard Operation Procedure)if you like;). It just hit me..I guess all this ethics books, all religion books are SOPs for life!!!!and God would be the auditor to see how well we are operating;)!!